May 24th of 2003...of course in Korea time again.....

damn..i had a great day today.....no work..woke up late..around 11am and went to work......just to chill.....actually i , mah co worker, and her friends went to movie theater to watch "matrix reloaded". haha i didn't like the ending..but it was great...made me think alot..and also made me confused again..arggg...i hate it when i have to really "think"~!

well..after that..somehow we went to Seoul Land...for those of you guys who don't know what that is..it's an amusement park...well...had a great time..and spent mah whole day there till they close the park....haha...yeah i m cheap ass....so what? =P

it just feels so right today.....after lil struggles i had for few days....this week...

well....i sent e-mail to the girl i met last week...that i won't bother her no more..cuz it seems like she has no interest in me....which made me sad..cuz i really thought she was great person...and i would like to date with her more so i get to know her better....well..i guess we r not meant to be...huh? i felt sorry for mah friend HJ who tried so hard to hook me up with that girl...sorry HJ noonim...i guess i wasn't good enuff for that girl......in a mean time, i will get a really nice one..and show to ya..so you would feel lot better..aiite?

i guess there's lil psychological gap between me and the ones who raised in korea.....i dunno why..but i felt this same thing back in states..well....at that time, it was between me and the white ppl...(sorry if u feel offended by this....) well..i guess....i m some kinda different race made between korean and white ppl...(psychologically tho).....mentally i m that race...whatever you call me...korean american?....maybe....i really hope that i would get to meet many friends who would really understand me..and chill better...the life i m having these days..doesn't help mah lil depression.....no fun yo~!

well.....guess it's getting lil late..gotta go sleep...

May 21st of 2003...in korea time...=P

dang..it's hot today..well it's kewl since it's not deadly hot......i m having hour off at work....well....actually i m at internet cafe....just trying to kill some times.....

hmm....i went to this fortune website...it says my fortune today is really shietty....it makes mah day worse...i guess...

well..actually i started today pretty good...woke up at 7...unlike usual times...and went to work one hour early..and enuff time to get myself ready to work...hoooo hoooo...^___^

yeap~! mah boss is back...feel happy for her....looks like she isn't having any hard times from her pregnancy.....at least it seems like...hmm....

dang i still have 4 and half hours work to go....dang...it's all good tho..it's fun to teach lil kids english...they learn so fast.....and they give me so much energy and make me happy and also make mah days better...

hmmm........i would like to write about mah beloved friend in korea...named...puhahaha...HJ....´©´Ô....^ ^ i enjoyed yer e-mail and i m listening to "thousand dreams" at this moment...and dang this is jazz...i can't believe i m enjoying this music..i must be getting old....haha....didn't know jazz was this good...^ ^  well....i remember that you told me whatever happens to me..you r and you will be always on my side....i was so encouraged by that...and u almost made me cry....remember this too..whatever happens to you..and wherever you r...and whatever happens between our friendship...i will be caring of you..and i m always on your side too.....

well....i might write more tonite....since it's day time..i dun feel like write more...well...ttyl everyone then...

today's song....have u listened the song "casablanca"? it's not new...actually it's really old..it's like 70's song or something like that..but try it..it's really good...

peace out

May 20th (in korea time)

well....i decided to start this gayish xanga page...not cuz to talk to ppl or get to know other ppls better...it's just becuz i wanted to leave some mark as i m living these meaningless days in korea....

n e wayz

i met this girl 2 days ago...we were kewl tho..and i thought she was more than good enuff for me...too bad i m starting to feel that she isn't really interested in me...which makes mah feeling depressed again...blah

anyways...it's no big deal...i can live with that...just that..i still have lil hope that she would call me tonite...

it's all good since i feel really free today tho...i called up Jinyoung yesterday nite....over in seattle...she's one of ....no probably i loved the most in mah life....it's been a year that we first met...i finally could call her after all this one year of mah painful time...before i wasn't brave enuff to talk to her over the phone...i dunno why..i just couldn't....dumb ass me..i guess.... i really strongly hope that this time i could get over her...oh no..get over my memory of her..that i had for more than year.........so i can live on......

dang....i really feel left out today...

well...here's the "quote" i've been thinking and keeping in mah mind all day today...

"love isn't what you can define....love is what you feel from the bottom of yer heart.."